At fourteen weeks, our baby is probably three and a half inches long (head to bottom) — about the length of a lemon — and weighs about one and a half ounces. By next week, he or she could be around five inches long and might weigh about two ounces. Although the eyelids are fused shut, his or her eyes are now sensitive to light. And sometime in the next few weeks, he or she will be able to hear my voice, though we've already begun English, French, Italian, and Music lessons.

I think I'm even more aware this time around of just how little I understand of how wonderful and heavy and mysterious the process of life is...how entirely unprepared I am for the depth of love that will soon painfully consume me.

And as determined as I am to just *be* in the joy and fear and hope... I am finding it even harder to be aware of the fleeting moments as they pass. The weeks are just racing by.

So even as I long to hold this baby and look into tiny eyes, ...and as part of me lives in the coming April...I'm a little reluctant to say goodbye to right now.