I just put Maya down for her nap and snuck down the hall to catch up on a few blogs. I was just reading these words of my friend, 'nittygritty' that seem to echo my own feelings so precisely.
...and think that this moment- this day- is something I will think back on and wish I could get back for just a little longer not too many years from now. It's like I close my eyes and pretend that this is my past and then I savor it even more. Realizing the present moment is here for me to cherish is really an amazing thing. No matter how routine the schedule may be. These little things...
She was writing about a day spent at Kindergarten with her girls. As I read, I was internally nodding my head...thinking about motherhood..and Maya...but also the way I sometimes feel frantic about remembering the pleasure of walking in warm sand, the smell of the woods, the way the light flickers through trees blowing in the wind, the excitement and warmth of sitting on my living room floor in the light of the Christmas tree carefully wrapping presents for people I love, sipping coffee from a big mug while being squished on the couch with my brothers and sisters talking, the sound of eggs sizzling in the pan and Jack Johnson's voice drifting down the stairs while Ryan plays with Maya on the floor...
...but as my mind wandered while I read, reminiscing all these other really happy things, I snapped into the 'now.' And I listened to my Maya, who is not sleeping in her crib down the hall. Instead, she is happily yelling, whispering, talking to her dolls. I wish I could see her without disrupting her 'alone time'...and ruining my hope that she will eventually... nap.
But I know that these amazingly sweet sounds will be replaced soon with more 'intelligible' words. That process has already begun.
But for now, I'll silently smile to myself and try to savor this...
"BABY! BABY! SA-sha......mmmmhhh...bah-bah...deedeedeedee, dar, dar,... pooh, twah. zoo.
baybay,beebee....dada...dedah, dada. dadahhhh!! dada."
2 comments:
Awwwe! How sweet that you 'caught that moment' as it happened and were 'present and aware' of it! Lately I've had the Gaither Song in my head when my days seem long or boring or routine. Or otherwise. "We have this moment today..."Yesterday's gone and tomorrow may never come...but we have this moment today." I remember singing in churches with my mom and dad and sisters. I know it struck me a little bit. I would try and figure out what "slips through our fingers like sand" really meant. Now I know. Thanks for checking in on me from time to time. You know we have to do 'real life' together one of these {fleeting} days. =)
funny. today, when I saw both of you, hugged both of you, I was doing the same thing: trying very hard to *remember*. ldoing that a lot more lately..i think your friend puts it very well. love you guys.
:)
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